Hf.

I know I'm not a perfect girlfriend, and I can't never be one. But I never stopped trying..

I'm sorry I always misunderstood your actions and words, I never meant to..

I'm sorry for not being able to be there for you when you needed a listening ear.. I wished I was..

I understand I'm your first girlfriend, and I've been in your shoes before.. I used to say break each time I'm unhappy.. And I knew first hand how much it kills the relationship..

But there's only so much a relationship can take before it breaks down; before we break down.

Maybe the things I do make you lose faith in me, in this relationship.. Maybe i'ce misunderstood you. Maybe i didnt treasure yor rfforts enough.. But I've never done anything that warranted such a drastic reaction/decision.

I'm tired of hearing the word 'break'.

I really am.

I haven't lose faith, I still wish to b with you.

But I can only try so hard.. You once promised me you'll never say break again, you swore.. Are you telling me that your promises are to be taken lightly?

When I heard that my friend has passed away, and he's the same age as me, suddenly I realise.. Life is so precious. I've never liked gg to bed angry w my boyf, and hearing this news just make me feel even more so. What if .. I never wake up?

I miss you.
& I wished..

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Hi, Im here to update my stagnant blog.

Bored out of my mind on a Thurs night, looking forward to the weekend but dreading work tmr. Sigh. Sometimes, I dont know whats the point..

On a happier note, shopping again tomorrow with Lindaaa! Meeting my darling girls on Sat for Eclipse! :))

Seems like thats the only part of my life worth looking forward to.. And of cause not forgetting my baby.

I have so much to say, but i dont know how.

Sigh. Goodnight.

:(

Sometimes, u say the most hurting things. FML.


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I feel so tired. Whatever happened to the happy days? Seems the harder I try, the worse it becomes.

Damn. Sigh. I don't even know what to say anymore.


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It felt very much like a drama. Somehow I've just got the sixth sense. Went out and saw that you've came to take the stuffs back.. I tried calling u, but your phone was off. So I guess that's the end, that it's fated.

I have so many things I wish I could say, but honestly, I guess it all mean nothing to you. I feel so heartbroken, whatever happened to the promises?

I've cried so much i doubt i can smile again.
I miss you. I really do..

是我说了太多，就成真不了。

就算放开， 但能不能别没收我的爱？

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Location:Heartbreak.

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I hate myself when Im feeling this way. Seriously. Gah.

Happy 5th!

5 months seemed short, but meant much more.
Thank you for everything, bibi! <3


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Mixed feelings..

I wish there was a way to put my feelings into words, but I can't.
I wish I could blame you for being too nice, but how could I?
I wish I don't have to hear that, but yet I want to.
I wish I don't have to know anything.

Argh, I wish I can just go to slp. Medicine, can u start taking effect and make me drowsy pls??

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Happy!

I just organized my wardrobe, and threw out so many clothes I've stopped wearing! My wardrobe was soooo packed and I couldn't put anymore clothes in! Haha!

Wardrobe :



Clothes Im gonna throw away:


Shiok!! Anyway, went ikea w baby ystd and we got a study table for myself! it only cost like $69!!




And some boxes for my junk!





Hee!! Off to play mj w my family. I'm so hungry! :(

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Back again! (:

Have this urge to blog again, hope I'll contiune to do so frequently?

Haha. I'm still in office at this time, have like 987749837 things to do. It's a Friday!!! :( on a happier note, finally time to tmm w babyboy tmr, he didn't have off for 2 wks alr, finally!

Sigh. I've been so stressed out recently, I need to relax! Seems to be handling so much more than previously, sometimes i feel like i cant breathe.. :/

Went to the Values 101 training at Wow! Academy ystd and today, seriously enjoyed myself! Conducted by Bentley Williams (http://bentleywilliams.com.sg), I think I laughed for 90% of the workshop. It's also very enlightening and motivating, haha. Two favourite things I've learnt: "be interested to be interested" and "if you can think it, you can do it". Cool right! Really learnt quite abit at the workshop. Thanks citi for sending us to that training. I heard its like over 200 per pax, WOW! hahaha!

Alright, my silly is here to fetch me, update again soon! (hopefully?)

xoxo

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Location:Temasek Ave,,Singapore

Happy CNY everyone! (:

My blog has been stagnant for the longest time! Haha. Bah, I shall just update about recent events. Once again its CNY again~ Seems like not much of an atmosphere this year, maybe because can't really go bai nian bah, as my grandma has passed away less than one year.

So yesterday only accompanied bf to his relatives' place to collect ang baos! :X Heh heh. Yesterday and today morning bf accompanied me n parents to go pray. Argh, really hope this yr will be a better year! Esp my health, sigh.

Anyway, less than one week to my taiwan trip with my baby! (: Before flying off, will be having a mini celebration with few of my dearest ~ just a simple celebration for my 21st.

I want to mahjong :( Ytd night mahjong with bf and my parents, and they 2 eat our money! Haha.

Anyway life is peaceful now, just wanna spend time w my family and people that matter.

Random Pics:

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I miss you.

I miss the three of us. I miss how we did everything together. Falling in love together, getting into trouble together, and when the wake-up call came, learning together.

I didnt forget the times we learnt to sing 'Wo Xiang Yao Shuo' together. Stalking Kobayashi, so many so many. Emoing tgt, u calling me at 7am in the morning, and me calling u at 4am.. And then going to sing K tgt, then sing until cry tgt. Hah.. During the times when I was still with him, you'll be even more angrier on my behalf. &Times yi will defend my actions, and u'll scold me, for being foolish. U guys, my angel and devil.. Hah. Forlorn, Lovelorn, and Revlon . . Isnt that how we were always meant to be..

Its been 5 years. I expected much more. Laughing tgt w yi just now, i miss my yu.. How I wish u're still here to let me rant each day's unhappiness, just like we always did. It hurts when I heard about you getting married from someone else.






Whatever happened to us, my dear friend?

我真的很想你。

One More Moment

Don't take too long to say
'I love you' to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away
And out on a clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard so say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Boiler + Powerhouse on Sat w Andy and his friends, wa piang. Drink whiskey like drink plain water. Went Dfly and Powerhouse as well to find ms Endrea foo. Fun fun night ~ Boiler was not as bad as I expected, guess its bout the company! :)

Random update, countdown 48 days to Taiwan!

2010!

Its the beginning of a new year once again, seems like just a few weeks ago I was writing the end of yr entry for 2008, haha.

Actually, not much to write for this yr, unlike the entry last yr. Haha. I guess what has passed are not important, what's more important is learning from what happened. I've learnt to let go of some stuffs, not to dwell too much on unhappy ones, not to expect too much from people, and to treasure, and be contented with what I have. And Im really contented with my life at the moment.

I think I spent more of 2009 clubbing and partying ._. But really sick of that lifestyle now! The present me prefers to spend a quiet night at home, playing dota or spending time w my family, and close friends. Its about time too, huh. Haha.

Health abit chui in 2009, here pain there pain. Must really really go for checkup soon, promise to whoever who cares.

&Lastly, I need to say a huge thankyou to dear ones who made my 2009 an eventful year. Thanks TSO especially for the many laughter you guys brought, though I hardly join outings anymore.. I din forget you guys. =3 And of cause never forgetting my beloved wanyi, I never wanna lose you as my best friend <3 Stay strong, I'll always love you! And of cause so many others, though I didnt mention, I guess you'll know who you guys/girls are. I love you all!

Im really looking forward to 2010 though, due to the upcoming trip to Taiwan in feb, for my 21st! One week trip doesnt seem long enough for me ): Tuan tuan and Yuan yuan, wo lai le!!!! Hahaha!

Anyway, I dont even remember the new yr resolutions I made for 2009, but hopefully I'll fufil my resolutions for 2010! Most important of all, to cut down on partying and get my car license! Haha. Say until very swee, 2nd day of 2010 Im heading down to St James. -.-! Heeee! &to cut down on my online shopping!!!! Gonna be broke for the first half year due to the Taiwan trip and my school fees that I have to pay for May. SO STOP SHOPPING!!!!!!!

&to change this laopok blog layout. Hah!

And yes, ling promises herself to be a happier girl in 2010. :)